Whew! Has it ever been a long while since I posted here! *cough, cough* I could get cyber-allergic-reactions to the byte-bunnies gathering underneath everything. :P Lots of stuff's been happening in my corner of the Universe...
I'm still puzzling over the many mystical dreams I've had since 2006...
I'm still reeling over the fact that I got to go see Jon Anderson TWICE in 2011!!!!
And as always, I am forever inspired to walk my path, thanks to Jon...okay, I know, I hear you saying the guy is still human, he ain't totally perfect, etc...but unlike so many folks I hear about in the news these days, Jon actually manages to walk his talk as much as humanly possible. He speaks his Truth, lives it to the best of his ability, given his hectic schedule (hey, he is clearly not choosing to sit round feeling sorry for himself after his major health scare! THAT ALONE is inspiring to me!).
And in my opinion, to watch this guy do his best to live, speak and sing his Truth while having the potent experience of being in the physical world, is nothing short of being a beautiful sight. Which is why I can't understand why people are so freakin' critical of him.
Just like I can't understand why folks were so critical of my own dad. No, my dad isn't perfect...but a lot of his thoughts and feelings have been shaped by the wounds he's had to bear most of his life.
Yet I admit I follow Jon's example a bit more because my dad's learned to be too fearful of certain things. In order to make my way in the world of earning my own way with my own creative career, hearing Jon's inspiring, powerful words has been the best medicine in the world for me...and I hope I don't have to stop taking it...because if Jon's music could manifest as physical medicine, it'd be pretty damn tasty! :-) It would have all the earthy, heady power of red wine, mixed with the heavenly golden color and magick of orange juice--and maybe some etheric bits from the Elven world (Jon technically IS part Irish)...
There's something about Jon's own feisty-yet-gentle nature that has shown me it's okay for me to be the same. A balance between the Love of Heaven and the need for a scrappy nature in order to survive and thrive in the current economic and social conditions we're all in...in order to rise above the conditions of poverty (which Jon knows well from his childhood) to thrive and live one's dreams--as Jon has. And he of all people knows just how strong a work ethic one has to have in order to get to where he is now...
And seeing just how strong a work ethic he's got--I know I need to sharpen MY game a great deal! Which means summoning up the Divine Force that is Badger Medicine (whose card I pulled last week!) is in order...
And I stand and say, "Challenge to sharpen my work-ethic-game accepted, Captain Anderson!"
Yeah, the other Yes guys may not have wanted him for a leader, or "captain," but I DO! If the "Moorglade" from his debut solo album ever were to be made physically manifest, he'd be rightful captain of it--and I would ever so gladly serve on the crew!
...and, truth be told...I would love to meet a guy like Jon...and I've rather made it one of my goals to be a person worthy of being with a guy like him...because even though he's in physical form like the rest of us, my heart tells me he's definitely not like other men.
Does this mean I have "self-acceptance" issues? Maybe...but I am thinking also that I'm not living up to the potential that I see now within myself--thanks to Jon's music. Oddly enough, I don't really judge myself too much for not seeing what I'm capable of...but now that I see the potential I have inside, my new aim is to reach that potential, and maybe go a bit further...doing this while working a full-time job is SO NOT easy...it's stressful as anything, but it's worth it...
Of course, part of that potential is getting healthy, physically...but an equally bigger part is learning the things I need to know to run my life--and my creative career--successfully...and those things they may not teach in business school...things like developing drive, perseverance and patience.
So here I carve a new future for myself...forge a new life for my soul to travel, and leave the traps, triggers and mental prisons behind..."No question, I'm not alone--Somehow I'll find My Way Home!"
May we ALL find our Way Home to our Hearts, our True Voices...
Blessings,
Kat ^.^
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